Managing Time

 There is no sense of time except the present. If I am not fixating on the future or the past, there is not that much to be done except for what is coming up now. Many times, the sense that I have is that there is a whole pile of things to do, but in fact this is only a temporary thought which often comes from a state of mind that is pulled away from its inner stability.
   Without the sense of stability it can be very hard not to completely lose one's balance in all the busyness of the day. This sense of stability might also take the form of asking myself, "what do I really find fulfilling in the present?" rather than the oft heard question, "What do I have to do now?" If I am constantly on a kind of twenty four seven alert from one task to the next, it is hard for me to find time to turn inward and ask the more basic questions, what do these actions really mean to me? If I am not asking this deeper question, I run the risk of wasting a lot of time doing the things that others are telling me to do, without really knowing what those same things mean from my perspective.
   Sometimes having moments of meditation and silent reflection can bring a person back to the sense of who they are in their entirety, stripped of the expectations of others.