turning inward

    I am curious about the expression 'turning inward' and what it really means. This morning and later during the day, for example, I had a glimpse of what it could mean as I was riding public transit. In those times, I could feel that there were two ways for me to look at the situation of having delays on public transit. One is to see that something is affecting me in some way (that is, there is something separate influencing 'me'). The other way is to see that there is only one mind registering the feelings experienced. When I look at it in this latter way, something interesting seems to happen. It is like all the 'feelers' start to pull  inward, as I recognize that there is nobody or nothing really making 'me' upset. All it really is, is one thought trying to reject another thought. For example, I have a thought which says that something is causing inconvenience to me. Then, I start to treat the 'me' as separate from the thought of that inconvenience, which in turn is seen as outside me in some way. What if I stopped and realized that all these experiences are originating from the same source--are all 'me', in other words? What would experience be like if I were to live like this all the time?
    When I tried this approach today of owning the totality of experience as mind, I felt a space opening up between all these thoughts, as though there wasn't such a jammed collision of intermeshing thoughts around inconvenience or something 'getting in the way of' something else. By identifying all the experiences as coming from the same source, I didn't feel any need to reject one thought or seek another. But most importantly, I seemed to (albeit briefly) relax into a space where I don't need to react to any thought at all. One way of putting this might be, there is only one 'mind' to which to place attention. Trying to separate things into separate elements or causes only exacerbates the need to solve or conquer one's experiences through a single 'dominant' thought. But if all the thoughts come from the same source, would there be any sense in using one thought to 'dominate' another? All this desire to 'choose the best thought' often comes from taking the thought to be a person. But what if it is only a thought, among many other thoughts with equal stature? Would I be so determined to win the argument between thoughts that are seen as coming from the same source?
    I think the act of turning inward is reminding myself of the source of my thoughts, and then learning to see them all with the same equanimity. No single thought defines who I am or my potential. But by clinging to a thought, I fail to see this, and end up experiencing vexations about thoughts.