Do First, Enjoy Later

I find that when I am in a rush to go to class in the evenings, I will wonder what I am doing it all for. But when I am in the class itself, something happens. If I am participating in the class regularly, I get a sense of mirroring and connection. I don't know if it even has anything to do with the subject matter itself, but somehow I believe that all these classes are opportunities to develop affinities based on shared interests. This is not unimportant. There  is a kind of emotional currency that happens when people share honestly and deeply from their heartfelt efforts, which in itself is a kind of blessing or merit of sorts.
   What I really wanted to stress, however, is how enjoyment of something often (perhaps unfortunately, in some cases) only really happens after one steps in the door as it were. If I am pondering or debating about whether to do something or not, then I have lost connection with the reality that we never really know what we like until we are doing something, or are engaged in it. The classic example of where this goes wrong is that of waiting for the surplus vacation time to do something you've been wanting to do for quite some time. I have found that in most cases, these times proved most unproductive at all, because I have lost sight of the fact that what we do with our time in the future is often dependent on the conditions we are sowing in the present. In putting off what I think I want to do for some future time, I will often end up cutting off the momentum that is necessary to jump-start the process. Action never takes place in a void, and it's perhaps a myth to say that freeing up time will initiate things.