Sunday, September 24, 2017

Connecting to Method

One of the most interesting things I learned during the retreat this weekend was related to how one connects to the method of meditation practice. Guo Gu Pusa remarked that the way one connects with method is a kind of reflection of how one treats self and others. I was quite moved by this statement, and I wondered, is it possible that indeed, working on one's meditation method is itself a way to work on one's interactions with self and others?
  How I am relating to this statement is quite simple, and that is: the more a person sits down and engages in one sense object or question, etc., the more they can see their own habit tendencies: the tendency to get drowsy, to think that meditation is a chore, to be bored, to get frustrated when they sense they are going nowhere, etc. And as GuoGu Pusa had suggested, these very things are not coming from the method itself but from one's mind. As far as I am not attaching to these states of mind and don't give up on the process, I will find that my relationship to the method grows, because I am no longer allowing these attached or deluded ideas to get in the way of my connection to the method. On the other hand, if I start to take the thoughts and emotions too seriously and assume that they are permanent 'obstacles', then everything about this process of relating will seem heavy and frustrating. Not only that, but it's in the process of reifying these emotions and thoughts that the self starts to appear, and that is also a reification of a kind of fictional subject that stands alone against the world.
    What happens when I allow the connection with the method to grow on me, and not to be fooled by wandering thoughts? It seems that when the connection is unobstructed, love and appreciation can naturally arise, no matter what the situation happens to be. This applies to all parts of life, as GuoGu had mentioned. How I see myself, others and the world in general tends to be colored by the way I see them as fixed entities that are unchanging, rather than as part of a changing universe in flux. But what if I let go of the categories and just lived with the method and beheld the mystery and wonder of it? Would this sense of mystery and wonder not enliven all my relations with sentient beings?

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