I was reflecting late tonight about how easily I am lead to feel impatient when things don't go my way or easily for me. I think this is important to reflect, because it's a sign of ego. This especially happens when an unpleasant or disconnecting feeling arises in me, and I am not able to process it fully. But when I think about it, from a Buddhist perspective, giving into these kinds of feelings is not correct practice, and it only solidifies the sense of a narrow self that is always needing to feel in control of things. What would it be like for me to become absorbed in the method of practice, to the point where I no longer felt the need to be in control, but could just flow with the natural course of events? I think this is one of the most laudable goals there is in spiritual practice, as well as in the teachings of Stoic philosophers, who agreed that according with nature is the goal of human life.\
Between emotion and reason, what should prevail here? Reason is the tool that can allow a person to practice more patience. For example, if I use my reasoning to reflect on why I am feeling a certain way, I can also realize that identifying too much with that emotion only sends me into more isolation. In fact, the lack of a reasonable reflection makes me more prone to wanting more and more comfortable experiences. But we all know that life is hardly going to be comfortable most of the time, and one must exert their wholehearted effort into everything. The desire for comfort and happiness is only temporary, and it can lead to all sorts of addictive attachments. That's why it's important to look at all states of mind with equanimity and then use one's reason to solve problems, rather than making decisions only based on subjective emotions. Well. I suppose all of this is the key to being patient, and it's always worth a try!
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